Buddy

We recently had to put our cat down, he was only 5 years old. I've never faced death like this before and it's taking it's toll.

When does this pain fade
when does it all go away
how often will you come to mind
how often will my mind unwind

i feel like i am going insane
this hole that's left little to blame
i can see you still standing here
i beg god to let me hold you near

there's nothing like your sweet little face
the warmth i felt within an embrace
though those will say to let it go
it hurts more than they could ever know

why couldn't i fix you
why couldn't i help
these hands feel so broken
there are i love you's yet unspoken

don't tell me it's dramatic
when this breathing is automatic
i'm angry to be helpless
angry he was helpless

there is nothing i want more
i feel it to my very core
to see you walk in this room
to hold you close, forget the doom

i want to make it right again
i want this pain to finally end.


i miss you buddy. i love you. R.I.P.

Author's Note

please don't review unless it's nice. he meant a lot to me and i do miss him dearly.