I Need Someone

I wish for things that I can never have.

I dream every night

Of a father

Not my father

Because he doesn't want to be my father

Instead I dream of a father

A nonexistent father

Everyday I wake up

With the ghost of a father's arms wrapped around me

Everyday I ignore the real problem

I ignore the fact that it took one word to send him away

It took one request to lose him

When I never wanted to lose him

Every moment of silence

I wonder

I wonder why I'm so hard to love

I wonder why he gave up so easily

When he said he loved me

When I thought he loved me

Reviews

[Soraya]

"Instead I dream of a father
A nonexistent father" beautifully said

[Eve]

Thank you so much, I'm glad to hear it.

[Riddhi]

I also feel the same as you..Sometimes I think am I so bad that no one can ever love me , and actually I also build up my own stories of an imaginary father..But I know that I can never have one...And so I don't understand what the love of a father means because I never got it since my birth...I can understand how you feel...You expressed your emotions well in this poem...

[Eve]

Thank you, when I'm writing my only goal is to convey what I'm feeling because that's how I express myself. Honestly it's the only way I know how to express my emotions and how I'm feeling is through writing, whether it's letters, stories, or poems. I know what it's like to have a father thank goodness. I also have a father figure, which is honestly the best thing you could ever have. The connection is really amazing, because he thinks of you as his daughter even though he doesn't need to. It's those kind of relationships and connections that will get you through it.

[KCthelastboyscout]

Relationships with parents aren't so easy. Just because you have the same blood doesn't mean you're the same people. I hope all the broken pieces are put back together for you both before it's too late

[Eve]

That's exactly how I feel about it as well! Thank you for the review!