Feel

What are feelings?

My hands are cold

I can feel them slowly starting to freeze over

I try to sit on them to warm them up but it doesn't help

I try putting them in my pockets

Nothing

I'm regularly a cold person.

Attracted to the cold in a way

But my body cant handle it

Once I layed out in the snow in my bathing suit for and hour

I could feel the cold rush over my entire body

The freeze sent shivers down my spine

And I could slowly start to feel my body fall asleep 

I didn't move though,

Feeling my insides curl in a ball

Craving warmth

My lips blue and violet color

My face as pale as the n sow itself

I felt a body high 

From being cold

I tried talking to myself but I think I could just mumble

My lips started to tremble,

I tried to get up but, my legs were weak from the cold

I felt as if they could snap under weight

I carried myself inside though

Staring at the wall as if it looked at me strange

But thinking why,

Why did I just do that?

What was the point?

Maybe

I wanted to feel something.