Burning Plastic

in health i believe
beauty passes imperceptibly
in between the surface
and the deeper expectations
of the things that we seek
    a basic chase, a borne distraction

health is not beauty
          intellectually speaking....
  
like a pretty lady without speech
or a vacuous something or another
things become so misleading
without warning
your life becomes a typhoon
in a spectacular flotilla
of perfect skin
named eventual devastation

below the surface exists tranquility
           in thought

i have been so wrong about thing's
in the past without warning
i let myself down on the regular
a thing that has happened enough to know
that what i do not know
is quite plentiful

so mistakes have led me
    deep below the surface
         practicing awfulness
taboo drunkenness
              exotic abuse
      misused talents
insane practices
    to find everything that can confront me
        to find what truly comforts me
    from that
i will find all that does lie
   in me
and to everyone of us
something base
         the beginning of shame
something very far beyond health, beyond beauty

what i'm seeking is simple

a very calming decimation
   a remembered destruction
      a personal understanding of how living things unfold

(flesh beyond flesh)
i know aesthetic based ethics are a lie  
will i bleed more to understand?
or just mow the lawn in the morning?
(to forget in a present)

Author's Note

Reviews

[Ana B.]

''below the surface exists tranquility
in thought''

this line has very much power. Been a while since i stopped by, but this is a lovely ''re-conciliatory'' read. There is wisdom in your thoughts and lines, as based on my experience, wisdom is the mistakes in life that we correctly understood and interpreted. I'm glad i stopped by.

[Davidgeo]

All my wisdom comes from my profound stupidity and I really do wish I had a better memory of all it.

[Ana B.]

i can well relate

[Farmgirl]

I find it interesting that you deny things and yet still are searching for deep meaning .

I believe deep down every one has an inkling of belief in them .. many just fear to further embrace the unknown about truth that deep down calls to their spirit ....

I like this ...

[Davidgeo]

I find it interesting you think that by not believing in Jebus or Goad it means I'm not searching for deeper meaning. Are you familiar with the "false equivalence" fallacy? You should probably look into logical arguments and fallacies; you will sound less ignorant, less obtuse if you can identify that stuff before you make the mistake. Although, given our interactions I've found you to have an inability to coherently argue anything... you just make statements praising one side and vilifying the other based purely on religious dogma. The only difference between you and a radicalized terrorist is the society you were born in... you think and present your religion in exactly the same manner, you just have more to lose and have been socialized differently. Honestly, I have grown tired of your comments as they are all the same.... I no longer have any respect for you intellectually.

[MsJewel]

I really enjoyed reading this - thanks for the rr. So many thought provoking lines for the reader to enjoy and the questions at the end tie everything up so well. Exceptional work Julie

[Davidgeo]

Thanks doll face.

[KWP]

hmmmm well this one starts out with a teasing zephyr of 'what could be?' and 'It will be good'.In fact I was surprised when reading it to know that it was you.

Then of course comes the 'unravelling' ...

I always find it amusing that truth seekers and life coaches and motivators always look for the good, they choose to see the good, in fact the goooooood must be the attainable. The thing is, if you are really looking to know yourself, well then you have to front up to the good as well and more imprtantly the bad, the disgusting, revolting, fiery, and ugly parts within ourselves, for it is us. Until we see & recognise, we will never know how to understand this aspect of ourselves ... so yes, go self destruct, get to know yourself better, sink into the darkest depths - then, when you come up for air, come find me and we can assimilate back in together over a beer ...

very thought provoking nice one ... :D XXX

[Davidgeo]

Life coaches and their ilk highly amuse me. Those who swear they are the best are usually performing some kind of mental gymnastics to convince themselves they didn't just waste thousands of dollars on basically, a living book of adapted motivational quotes and pop positivity psychology. Though, some people really do thrive on the "fake it till you make it" and "everything I do is good if I only think positive" mindset. (those people have personalities that annoy the f**k out of me).

[KWP]

ha! yes well I can imagine the do :D