depression

it's like your cat just died
all the time

it's like the world is a dream
of a nightmare
         everyday

it's like you breath herpes
and spit cancer
        everywhere

it's like you never have a choice
only outcomes
     of despair
  of self loathing
 and distraction. . .

 

it's like you miss the point
everyday that you're here

it's like it's better
    if you didn't really matter
and nobody cared

. . . and it never, ever ends
all because
       you think you deserve it

and never can shake it

like you're preprogrammed to have it. . .

and that's what it is

and it is
why it is

that sometimes. . .

(we don't all get to make it)

Author's Note

Reviews

[Alistair (Ali)]

Good write- I experience it differently, but I empathize- I also find that a bout of depression can leave one insanely tired!
There is a flip side to living with depression and that is when things are good, they are very good indeed.
I like that you are making music from the affliction, it is something I do too!
All the best to you
Ali

[NotUsinganymore]

A very descriptive poem. It flowed well (even though I needed to look up several of the word's meanings) But it was a nice poem about what depression is like that I suffer from.