protracting memories

into demon babies

retrieved and dissected

elaborately rehearsed

distorted

engulfed 

within memory protracted

reborn

revived

reconstructed

crucified again 

bleeding out, 

encoding failures

insufficient cues

delusions

from old memories 

ruined presently

into new anxieties

it engulfs me

the new memory

from old

it's like a baby

my demon baby

it haunts me

so very personally

Author's Note

sometimes it soothes me