development

developing your life

a disturbance enters your personality

persistent over time

,comes your neurosis,  

reason fades around this 

a kernel of memory

increasingly nonverbal

more often ignored

becoming confused

emotionally dysregulated

further distorted

into a feeling of distraction

visceral 

insatiable

a need to drive action

into a future from a past

here it comes now, 

maladaptive actions

increasingly encircled

unable to speak clearly

bound now to the consequence 

leaning into degeneracy

unwilling to mend properly

increasingly estranged

battles into battles

now a disturbed personality

fulfilling the prophecy

becomes a disturbing personality

ready for the future

oblivious to a past

developed by monsters

Author's Note