Your Many Wounded Trials

You can try to run away
But you're always going to find
Just several steps ahead
Will be the visions of your mind
You can close your eyes so coldly
Turn around and just walk on
Pretending in your weakness
You can only be so strong
But it's like you never left
Though you've gone a million miles
And you counted all your glory
Into many wounded trials.

Many loves you've taken in
Did you ever let them go
All the many times you've fallen
When the loneliness did show
All the demons you let in
Just confused you in the fight
You could see in all the darkness
And be blinded by the light
But it's like you never left
Though you've gone a million miles
And you've taken every beating
From your many wounded trials

Was every wasted minute
Just another passing phase
Was every single hour
Just a story's missing page
You knew the clock was running
And you could not set it back
Was that cause for the alarm
In a restless mind's attack
But it's like you never left
Though you've gone a million miles
And time will not protect you
From your many wounded trials.

Reviews

[Curly Grace]

Your poem carries a powerful, unguarded honesty. The refrain becomes a kind of echo... with the self follows us no matter how far we go. I felt the ache of those “wounded trials,” but also the strength in naming them. There’s a clarity here that lingers long after the last line.

[Brandon Houser]

Thank you. I almost lost this poem because I foolishly put it just on facebook notes. I had to jump through hoops to find out where they placed it.

[John the Baptist]

I see in this one the picture of one who carries a heavy past. The "wounded trials" are not specifically named, but "the many loves you've taken in" suggests failed relationships are at least some part of the story. The general tone is regret, with fear of fleeting time figuring in. One can only hope that the speaker can some day understand that the past, however painful, has no life of its own and must be released through self forgiveness. Otherwise, the "wonded trials" will live on.