Unrequited

Uhm, guys, hi

When I met her, she was like the sun. Gorgeous, shining, lighting up the room with her smile and laugh. We talked about random stuff, bonding over the smallest things. I fell that day and I haven't got back up. 

I can't get over you, I miss being around you, under you. I miss waking up early and not moving a single muscle because you were laying on me. I miss being made fun of by you when I do something stupid. I miss your cat pawing at my hand, trying to get attention, I miss waking up to his weight on my chest. I miss waking up to you.

I found out why you stopped replying, why you stopped making plans. I wish you've done it sooner so I could've gotten over you easier. Three years of yearning and I still can't get what I want. I smile and listen as you tell me about your new boyfriend, tell you he sounds sweet. 

I question everything I did in our relationship, try to understand if you just lost feelings or if I did something. Was I suffocating you, or did you just not like me?

You'll continue to flirt, send me videos and messages, calling me pretty, saying I'm amazing, that I'd look better with you. I'll get confused, try to figure out why you're flirting. I'll make it obvious I haven't lost feelings, flirt back. You'll enjoy the attention but still won't tell me if you even liked me from the beginning.

I try to move on, distracting myself with new girls. They can't change how I feel about you. I'll tell them they're beautiful, we'll be together for a little while, and I'll leave, tell them I'm sorry. All I've wanted was you. I see all these girls and still can't find one that I think could beat your beauty. 

I'll let another girl meet my mom. She'll capture her heart just like you did. They'll connect, talk, get along. I'll think she's forgotten about you until she mentions you. I'll brush it off, say nothing happened.

I'll think about you late at night, when I kiss another girl, when I touch another girl. I feel disgusted by it, want to pull away anytime her head touches my shoulder or my chest. We'll sit in my bed, and she'll lay across my lap. my breath will stop as I look down at her, remembering when you did the same, how amazingly perfect you look with your hair messy from sleeping.

She'll leave and I'll stop trying to move on, knowing I can't. I'll wait for you. I won't fall in love with anyone else. I'll see your face out in public and remember all the times you've ran up to me, jumping on me with excited because you saw me. I'll fall in love all over again.

Reviews

[ETERNITY]

Every single one of us wishes we had somebody to adore us this much!
You have collected all the things we dream of.
Great write!

[Elli🦝]

Thank you so much!

[Marie Kinnett]

this is really sad and beautiful.

[Elli🦝]

Thank youuu!