losing the war

the first of a series inspired by the album The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me

Losing all my friends

Losing them to drinking and to driving

Losing all my best

Losing them to guilt and suicide

Losing all I had

Losing them to fighting and dividing

Losing all I have

Losing them to memory and life

Is it better this way? Not to know or

Not to care

Am I like a child? Still crying or

Still sleeping in

Is it in you 

to see your life given nothing

The things you've built 

broken
and forgotten?

Way gone by the time I--

I realize I gotta come through

I relapse--

I retake the test

Only to fail it worse than I ever did

Before you prove my point 

Take my body to the coast 

and

Give it all away--give it all 

Something

that means anything

After it’s said and done

Will you ever learn 

to come down--go up the

line 

and belong; be someone

else

But that’s okay

I’m not afraid

I’m not your coward

I’m just a kid in a storm

I’m not to blame

I’m not your shepherd

I’m just the one who carries the shame

We’re not a family--

I don’t love you like you love me

Do you miss the summers?

Do you feel condemned just being there?

Losing all I am

Losing it to myself

It's coming to an end

We're coming to an end

Author's Note

This is the first in a series of poems that are inspired by the album "The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me", by Brand New. It is one of my favorites, and it has a lot of personal worth to me. That album has helped me get through so much. These obviously pale in comparison, but they are meant as just a way to express myself and to be inspired by the music. I hope you all adore them <3 <3 Love, Sofia Guerra

Reviews

[Averie]

In love with this. I can tell how much this means to you, keep writing!

[Sofia Guerra]

thank you so much love