Ruminate

I feel as though I'm never heard

Like my words are automatically "turned down"

on everyone elses ears

When I was young

I would scream

but still no one heard

Instead

they believed me mad

eventually so did I,

and I became mute

scared of myself

my feelings

my actions

my demons.

 

To not end my life,

I wrote,

which in turn,

would produce a thought

for me to ponder in silence.

Books, which was  always important

became my best friends

as well as paper and pen

but still I was afraid

scared of myself

my feelings

my actions

my demons

 

One day I awoke, (a bit)

The message I had been receiving from childhood

was not a mirage.

As I realized the

most important lesson I learned,

was to listen to the silence..

I'm no longer

scared of myself

my feelings

my actions

my demons

 

Reviews

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what a profound write..the sadness that permeates from the first two stanza's was stark, made me want to hug you :)

The final stanza was just something else, the understanding, light on, the peace..and listening to the silence...speaks of a sense of someone who finally is on a spiritual path of enlightenment..brilliant

[Linear]

Now here is a poem written from the heart, words bleed onto type set screen, and yes indeed so many will relate to this, But alas Stephen King is not my thing.

A most enjoyable read,
Thank you
Linear

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. amazing, transformational and very, very inspiring ...

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

oh yes~ the books were also my sanity~ my reason~ my voice~ my haven~
beautiful write~ I can deeply relate~

[Norma M Sutton]

This is lovely.

[Bubo]

Books, which was always important
became my best friends
as well as paper and pen
but still I was afraid
scared of myself

How alike we are..........how I felt, and you have come out with such wise beautiful sad words...........silence now for me is actually peaceful, thank goodness!!!

[Wondering Mind]

One hears a lot when listening to the sound of silence. We each have our own stories with the words and thoughts that play with us....