the eyes of society

i spend hours and days
trying to come up with words
that i no longer possess
and a heart
that no longer beats
for what reason
other than some company

i spend hours and days
putting these poems in a book
only another on the shelf
seemingly skipped over
by each passerby
for what reason
other than some company

i spend hours and days
ripping these pages thin
staining walls with ink
and disrupting the flow of
traffic in the dorms
for what reason
other than some company

i spend hours and days
still trying to be
another poet on tiktok
reading their thoughts aloud
looking beautiful doing so
for what reason
other than some company

i spend hours and days
changing everything about me
from my punctuation
to my structure
with no progress to show
and for what reason

other than some company