Blankly and Silent

My mind is locked in this dreadful state
desperately trying to find ways to escape
don't look down on me, I don't need your pity
something so sharp has never looked so pretty
gushes of blood and bright crimson tears
for just a moment I forget all my fears
blankly and silent I stare at the sky
my heart starts to ach and tears come to my eyes
these are the days that I wish I was dead
I look in the mirror at the tears I have shed
I think of the past and the days yet to come
scared of myself I think "what have I done?"
my life is a mess and its to large to fix
please let me die, this is my only wish
no more chances, things won't get better
but should I commit? this choice lasts forever
I grab a pen and some paper and write down a note
"I love you, I'm sorry, but I can't fix what I broke."
blankly and silent I stare at the sky
and I think to myself "I have to try"