I keep going back

self exhumation of going back to reality

I try going forward

I try to be positive

I try to lose sense of reality

 

but it keeps coming forward

And, I keep going back

Back into reality.

 

All my dreams and hopes

remain but a dream

I phase into fantasies

Yet, over and over

 

It keeps coming forward

And, I keep going back

Back into reality.

 

I hate it

I hate it here

I hate this state of mind

 

Nothing

Everything

Where i've been

What i've done

What i've seen

What i've heard

 

It's all the same.

 

It keeps coming forward

And, I keep going backward

Backward into Reality.

 

I wish this were a dream

I wish this wasn't real

I wish I was back where I was before

Back, where I belong.

Author's Note

no notes,,,say what you want, say how you feel about this.....this is my current life. I have no better way to put it.