11/05/10

the update you sit and refresh for
the test you wait for all you long for is there voice there message
all the choices to be made
what i do ? laid there
lifes not fair! the thoughts role
i can fool everyone the plastered smile
dial the number then erase it
my heart races when the light blinks
all i do is think
blink alot take a deep breath to keep the tears down
i wanna pound someone
going to write the worries and the pain all down
feel like a clown like i have a mask on hideing the real me
i deal with it try to please everyone
do i feel alive? no
the slices cuts and blood
showed me i am human my heart is stone
im all alone
all the pain piles up
i want to go many miles away
am i decaying?am i really human
one day maybe ill feel alive agian