If I Could see what will happen, will my eyes be the one to realize it?

June, 18-19, 2025
Dear Diary, I don't know what to say anymore but I was kind of wrong.. Actually my classmates are so loud, their armpits smell, some hasn't brushed their teeth's yet. And It's only just have been 2 days since June 16, First Day of school. I can't find my pen anywhere and I'll try to find it because I paid for it per BOX. For the first time I actually kind of missed being an elementary student.

 My Teacher called me to take a picture of me for my Student ID. Back then if I wanted to have a Student ID I must pay for it. But now, it doesn't seem like my Adviser is asking for a payment. I'm actually pleased and to be honest my picture looks.. Bad. Like my smile isn't a genuine smile, but who cares? It's just a student ID.

My Adviser is making us write the class schedule. Every four days it's four subjects per day. And on Friday It'll all be the 8 subjects. Unless if one of the weekdays are special days we're gonna an 8 subjects.

On Monday-Wednesday, It is Filipino, Technology and Livelihood Education, Mapeh Music and Arts, PE and Health.

On Tuesday-Thursday, It is Values Education, Science, Mathematics, and last but not the least. English.

Today it is Tuesday, tomorrow will be my first official jhs day. So it'll be a Monday Schedule. I hope that I'll be as smart as I was back then.

June 19, 2025

Dear Diary, my school just ended 30 minutes ago. I just visited my Grade 6 Teacher along with my former two classmates from last batch. Her students are very clever, smart, and good looking. For her student's batch (25-26) she is the Class 1 Adviser. I told her about my problems, the society, and the Happening's in my life. She is still the Joyful Teacher as I remembered. She gave me advice and we talked longer. And finally said goodbye. I walked away very slowly, I wanted to roam around in my elementary school. But I know that, I don't belong there anymore. After four years of being in that school. I finally closed the book that filled my emotions with everything I felt during those years, even if I don't remember.

For a moment, I didn't even realized I was standing still. Till someone tapped me that Visiting Time is over. I was lost in thought and suddenly a dust got in my left eye, and it started irritating. I don't even remember a lot, the last thing that I remembered was that I finally got home. Literally expressionless. My Mom didn't notice me and screamed when she saw me. She said, ‘I thought no one was there�"you scared me." I snapped back in and laughed sarcastically.

My vision is starting to blur again. A sight of him scares me every time. His presence still lingers in my chest.

Author's Note

based on real events