Cut

Wrote this years ago now. Being a teenager is hard!

I sit, staring at the blade as it catches the light. Gently I turn it from side to side, examining the metal, the small indents in the blade, the sharp point. A sudden rush leaks through my body as I push the blade further out of its plastic cage. Fear rushes through my veins as I lower the blade to my pale skin, I stop and stare, tears welling in my eyez, my heat races. I feel control, power, fear. My arm moves swiftly, lowering the blade to connect with my leg. The fast motion leaves my heart racing. I stare down at the cut, blood seeps from the wound. The red liquid flows from me, pain hits and sends a shot of electricity through my body. The pain is real, the blood is rich and warm. There isn’t enough to please the thirst within me. Another swift movement leaves another line of red, My heart aches, as I stare at the blood, flowing over my skin. Tears well in my eyes as I take a third swipe.

I control were the pain comes from.

Reviews

[Perri]

Been there, done that. Balls to my shrink, he's treating a sane patient.
It was such a good way to release pent-up tension, but I'm not allowed to any more. Breaks my poor little heart. I envy you your freedom, but at the same time...the thing which sets you free is sometimes more of a prison than you realise...took years to break that beautiful addiction.
Emotional, raw, and that makes for pretty english.
I agree the teen years totally blow. And I'm not even done mine!

[marker_c]

It seems to be a common thing now, is an addiction like many others. Teen years are hard! Trying to surround yourself with supportive and wonderful friends is the best thing that you can do. But is a lot harder than it sounds. Important to just keep going, one day at a time I guess

[Perri]

Yup, having supportive friends has gotten me through everything, goodness knows where I'd be without them =]