Getting Out of My Own Way

I'm an introvert. I go against type and tell you about it.

I am the textbook definition of an introvert

Trust me, I even looked it up

I keep to myself and say very little

Going through life where I simply hush up

I am often misconstrued as haughty

Disinterested or angry with others

I use three words instead of using seven

So direct and short in my words that it bothers

I am more aware today of the way that I am

Though I appear cold that is not the truth

I bear emotion and care quite deeply in fact

I have been this way ever since the days of my youth

I open up to a small group of people

But still the same, I don’t reveal all

I keep my thoughts very much my own

And in doing so I make others feel small

My heart breaks in two for the hurt that I cause

Dealing in pain was not my intention

But through the words from my lips or my body’s inaction

The impression of others I give is distraction

I am alone most the time and the funny thing is

By definition it’s what I like best

But to cut people out or misrepresent myself

Brings a pain that builds up in my chest

 

I attempt to make strides at opening up

It’s silly but it’s against my nature

It’s too easy for me to just draw back inside

Almost as shell like a giant sea creature

I ask for your patience, I’m doing my best

This is not a natural skill

My true self I will work to bring forth out to you

With determination and sheer force of my will

Reviews

[PoeticSorcery]

it's hard to fight one's inner nature, one's self. we are who we are, not who we choose to be. we can certainly change parts, or aspects of ourselves, become better, wiser, stronger, but the core of us shall always remain the same, even when we ourselves sometimes forget who that is.

[Mitch]

It's a daily think I work to improve on. That's the challenge I suppose, to go against your nature to be a better representation to others.

[PoeticSorcery]

yeah, no change is ever that easy, especially when it's something that comes naturally, but not impossible, which some of us sometimes get caught up in believing.