It Should Have Been Me

Feelings that surrounded me for a time after my brother committed suicide.

it should have been me lying in that hospital bed it should have been me who is now dead it would have saved so many from turmoil, had it been me and not you it should have been me, the one who should be forgotten. it shouldnt have been you to have taken that last breath you had something to offer this life and people loved who you were it shouldnt have been you; the artist, the student, the promise of health it shouldnt have been you, and i would take your place in a heartbeat if i could, bring you back, make people happy, no more fighting and anger and deep unquenchable pain.... it should have been me to die that day, not you little brother, you meant too much to many