What I Never Tell Anyone About Me

poetry

today I sit & daze out my window having no regrets sowed seeds of honesty

in humble brevity the words start to get heavy yeah it ain't easy feeling needy

inside I fall behind four walls that blind but in time the magic episode truth be told

have an ocean of thoughts hidden inside the time I was 16 wanted to kill myself

took a noose around my neck but in the nick of time said, "What the heck I'm going to regret"?

　

years had passed went to work as a security officer but had a bad boss kept putting me down

had a nervous break down went to the hospital started hearing voices diagnosed as bipolar

depression was in my head took I.O.P. classes to help tried for social security put got denied three times...

this time is different this time I'm getting good help want to take you with me on this journey

I suffer in silence as a pawn but I have Jesus so sound the alarm he is my savior & friend

　

Every day tears flow from my eyes does it come at any big enough of a surprise

just when one storm is done another one is brewing but you know what I'm doing

I'm praying for a break through to come any minute hide away from the tender silence

I see things such as the Alan Parsons Eye over my bed with three cats that hang around me

Inside I hide away from the storm brewing outside so I carry on with silence

I need help to cope everyday accept now I have skills such as radical acceptance

to use my wise mind a brilliant way to let loose any tension throughout my day