Colder

i sit up high upon the haystack,
the roughness of it digging into my thighs
i see you

a small dot of a person fading away
going further and further away
i shiver as the cold envelops me
i tuck my arms into my shirt
i can feel the heat of my skin
i'm tired and awake all at once
things happen so quickly out here
if you dare close your eyes

and so i don't
i breathe in the chill and wish
i wish i didn't live in your world
i don't seem to understand
i'm a foreigner on your land
and i think you might regret me
i look back one more time,

and i don't see you at all
there is too much silence

and i wish you back
i know you'll come back for me,

but i will be the same
only a little colder.