Which Way to Go

i'm almost too tired to care
the sleepless night last night was just enough
for me to say that a change is not such a bad thing
but then i worry all day today
a headache and the tired pulling me both ways at once
what i want and what i can have
are not even close to the same
and i'll be dam*** if i don't have choices
that i just don't want to make
like the devil and the angel on my shoulders
arguing like i'm not even here in the middle
confused and hurt and even a little angry
neither would listen to me even if i knew what to say
but i don't
it is all about what i want to hear
no one says what i want to hear
and at this point, i can't fill in the blanks either
maybe by tonight i'll know
which way to go