The Child You Lost

When I left my biological mother because I couldn't take the responsibility of being a parent at five years old.

Its been years

Year after year

I watched you not try

And saw you give up

Even when I had to leave

And told you to go

I was tired and mad

Needed to leave, to live

I was just seven

When I walked away

But just at five and the eldest child

I carried a weight on my shoulders

A world to heavy for a child to carry

Not made for a tiny child

It made invisible scars done to the bone

The pain of it all, made me cold

I know I'm not the only one out there

That there are others

Before and after me

But you feel alone in the moment

But now I have grown

Older soon to be sixteen

Without you I have grown

The burden, not so heavy anymore

I don't stop to wonder

What it would have been like

with you and them

I left giving up on my siblings to be free

I continue to live

Every day to the fullest

Without the burden

Holding me back

I tried to be your friend

When I could handle talking to you

After healing myself with the space I needed

But it didn't end up so well

You overstepped boundaries

Pushing against the rules we set

Just to try and take over

What a joke that is

Repeatedly told you no and stop

But you didn't, kept pressing to get in

trying to break into to my life

After you already lost the chance

I wont take anymore

At 18 is when the door closes

I don't have to deal with it anymore

At 18 I'm free of you.

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

You show such inner resilience here for a young person. You have travelled far and deserve every happiness. I hope the future shines bright for you.

Chris

[Marie Kinnett]

Thank you, it has took a while to get over the lost of not having a real mother be there for me. But I have manage to find happiness in my life since then

[Curly Grace]

There’s so much resilience in these lines. You capture the loneliness of that kind of childhood, but also the courage it takes to walk away and choose yourself.

[Serendipity Planet]

Powerful , honest words
I hope that you found your peace

[Marie Kinnett]

Thanks, I have found my peace it took some time though

[Sromag]

This is not a fictional poem is it?
It feels like a cry out to the world.
Something you needed to let out.
With the sound of desperately needed relief at the end.... and something you dearly look forward to.
Powerful

[Marie Kinnett]

Thank you, This poem is about when I was a child. It means a lot to me that you said that