Disintegrate.

“It’s been a long journey,”

Said I, without a surprise,

A long journey, I say now,

On the road to self-destruction

To abuse and a success

Saved for a grave

Six hours away

In a city so slow,

I just can’t keep up.

 

I haven’t slept a wink in forty long days.

 

I’m so scared of

The things that don’t matter,

Like your elbows

And the color of my hair:

I’m going mad.

I can feel it,

I’m going to end up

Like heroes in ovens

Of years past,

And I know my fate

But I’ve no idea

If there’s still an ‘us’

‘Cause I’m hiding my feelings

As you’re fighting off lust.

 

Though I wish it didn’t matter,

It always will.

 

I’m staying alive on photographs

And the impossible math

Of trying to glue

Our pieces

Together.

 

Did we ever fit to begin with?

‘Cause I’m not sure of

Anything anymore,

Except for your eyebrows

And my legs when they’re sore.

 

I’ve got cuts you’ve never seen

Beneath the skin,

Right through my heart

With her flickering beat.

I’m stuck between the sheets

Of what could still be

If I had the courage to say

The words I’m feeling:

 

I’d die without you.

 

And God, I’m not exaggerating

Even if I wanted to be.

 

We feel it ending,

But just watch the

Storm out the window,

Not knowing what to do,

With tied tongues

And I’m trying to run again,

Away from the problems

And the vanities

Of the relationship we’ve

Been starring in

On some deserted stage,

Way off Broadway

With a two star review

As I’m missing the cues

That never once existed

Before there was you.

Reviews

[Dug]

Not sure which is harder. Having a relationship die or knowing that it's about to.

[Engulfed in Flames]

"in a city so slow I just can't keep up"...nice
"Like heroes in ovens"....okay Sylvia

"If I had the courage to say
The words I'm feeling:
I'd die without you."....i could cry..it's so true

[Engulfed in Flames]

nice!

loved the stage references..as I would