globular humanoid

unworthiness for new mate is I

finding my self amidst feeling of ambiguity. finding myself doubting my worthiness of another feminea; I just find my self a repulsive being not fit for a feminea. yet for some strange reason I have noticed femineas glancing intriguingly at me, yet i don't see the appeal in my fat, short, Hispano, globular, humanoid self. I will remain retentio intimus because of my unworthiness. I don't want to put my repugnancies on a feminea. I would not want to disgust those beauties with my repugnancies. i would not find it pleasing in any manner to repugnantly disgust any beautiful feminea. UNWORTHINESS HAVE I............................... (retentio intimus: latin for withholding intimacy)

Author's Note

this writting came to mind when a feminea asked me for my number, I told her I can't and she asked me to drop by her house any time she lives a down the street from where I live. she also said I have a great voice and that I'm "very good looking, with great teeth" she also was to close for comfort, you know that area we all consider our space or area. this has been the first feminea to ask me for my number................................