retentio intimus

how I have functioned since the parting

me being this repugnant humanoid globular being i will no longer chase femineas. i have had my fill of journeys, with every feminea i have journeyed with having laid with another. there is something wrong with me. I can't keep femineas happy. maybe it's my 1930's romances & sense of humor. every feminea i have journeyed with has laid with another behind my back, maybe it's my lack of bedroom romances, at the moment being i do not have the ability to afford a feminea. i will remain away, away from them. i have only had 3 intimate romances, thus my lack there of. i have been on only two journeys and i do not want to strike out, i will not approarch plate to bat any more. what i seek is an antediluvian personality feminea i hope to find YOU. retentio intimus is what i will do from here on forth. abstinence celibate i shall remain, (it's double abstaining that's how serious iam)  i do not want to put my globular repugnancies on another feminea and fail as I have before. yet if i get the Department of Fish and Wildlife career i will seek a wife and have child, i will name my child Ella Mia Bella, if im worthy i shall have a family of my own. {{and yes I shall wait for marriage for mating, but if I do not have a career to raise a family I will remain abstinence }}

Author's Note

I shall not be with another. I have learned my lesson(s). retentio intimus: latin withholding intimacy. journey: intimate relationship. and for some reason the femineas are coming on to me and asking me to dates. globular humanoid is i.