I'm afraid to close my eyes I don't wanna see I'm so afraid to know The darkness surounds me My heart beats quickly My breathing off beat My mind racing Calming down, an impossible feat My blood is boiling My body is aching My anger is rising My hands are shaking No words can describe Nothing can compare I lay awake Or I wake up there Pills are no help They merely trap me It's a fight to stay awake It's my only chance to be free This fight cannot be done no one can win Though the anxiety will stay For it is a fight within