Fishing

A Poem by nadia dmitri

I fear I don’t trust myself
With how easily adoration dips into idolization
To take a bite, not a binge
Enjoy, not depend
Experience, not wallow
My synapses are unfamiliar
With allowing a good feeling to be a good feeling
I am an atheist programmed for religion
A wandering spirit searching for death
Fishing for a god in a lover