Simultaneously hit

I awake from this sleepless hell. As this fire surrounds I am warm, the warmth consumes me I am washed out by my soul, for water is now what I am in, drowning in this pathetic ocean, I shall drown my self in my own self pity. I see...now I am in what? Dead a watery grave...a mask  to cover up my sins, I long to be something I in vision in my future? I've left my self to weep and wallow in this body. I know who I am When I see my self I don't want to know who I will become, I care not for whom I have been, simultaneously hit by the person struggling with me. It seems I have dragged my self from the pathetic ocean, No longer alive, I lay upon my body. Morphed into one, Reborn on a new soul. To start with this mask, that we will all fall in love with. In the end I am the person I no longer love. Low and behold ye emerges from ye cave do we bestow our love upon thee? Or cast away in remorse at the site of thee. Like I said I no longer love me. Am I really able to hide, escape reality? no I can only pretend.