her orders

about my abusive stepmom

When I look in the mirror I see

Everything she told me

She told me to be pretty

So I braided my usually uncontrollable curls

She told me to be skinny

So I didn't eat

She told me to be more lady like

So I crossed my legs and kept quiet

She told me to smile and stand up straight

I did as I was told

She told me my green eyes should be blue

So I stared into the ocean

I followed every command

Even when she was plain, fat, boyish, slouched, and frowned.

And even had green eyes

One day she told me to be happy

She told me ugly green eyes need a sparkle to them

I did my best but I couldn't be

Because her green eyes, lost their sparkle years ago

And I wondered who's orders she obeyed

Reviews

[JC]

A good insight into perception and that realization that you don't have to live up to others expectations.

[barleygirl]

I think this is a powerful message of how it can feel to be criticized constantly as a young person. I always love good specific examples of the way things are done & said, as you've showed us the hurts, actions speak louder than words, as we see this abuse of non-acceptance unfolding in your poem. I was thinking this could be your stepmom but also it can be our own inner voices after we've lived thru childhood abuse, the voice goes on & on even after the bad parenting situation is long over. Verbal abuse is every bit as damaging as physical abuse.

[Sir Drift & Mr. Pulse]

If beauty had a price, everyone would buy it, and im glad it cant be sold, because its already there. Beauty sits inside a person just waiting for that person to realize what they are doing. And when you find it, you will too see. Let no one change you.

PS. I think curly hair is beautiful!

[vivian]

Very good, You put a lot in to this its really good!

[Carl Phantom]

I loved it! This is the first poem of yours i've read and it's amazing! You sound to be a beautiful writter! Hope you get even better!

[bella]

Thank you so much!

[Raven Moonchild]

This poem is so deep and absolutely amazing. :)

[Natasha]

This is an amazing and powerful poem. I love this so much!

[Nora]

I will be honest, this is one of the most beautiful peom I have ever read here , i really love it 😊

[bella]

Aw thank you

[Nora]

My pleasure 😊