Gone

My biggest 'secret' of 2012... felt so good to get this out.

Force yourself upon me,
take me once more.
My "NO" went unheard,
as you seized power over me.
No... MINE.

As I lay sleeping,
Your hands started to roam;
First to my breasts, then to my sides.
Woken by your touch,
I just lay there,
pretending to sleep.

Your hands inched lower,
my pants were pulled down...
Still pretending to be asleep,
I rolled over, blocking your access again.
Frustrated, you packed your things,
Walked right out the door.

Finally able to relax, I slept.
Morning came, no messages from you.
When I asked what happened (as if I didn't know)...
You said it was nothing,
and I wondered what else was kept from me

through the years we've spent together.

Force yourself upon me,
take me one more time.
My "NO" went unseen,
as you seized power over me.
No... MINE.

Besiege my heart, the walls are built.
Respect… gone.
Love… gone.
YOU'RE gone.

Author's Note

I'm open to any suggestions for improvement as usual, but please be gentle with this one...

Reviews

[fireblossom]

This is lovely Nicole. It is lovely because of its honesty. It also made me sad and it made my heart hurt for you (or at least the protagonist). It made me reflect on past relationships. Did I misinterpret, did I misuse my power? I must admit that I have some regrets. What would have happened had I been more sensitive to her feelings and less selfish about mine?

I think great poetry should stimulate such thoughts and feelings. I think this is great poetry. :-)

I am proud of you for opening your heart for this poem.

PS - the line 'my no went unseen' caused me to consider how I would be as your friend. How much more visual and generally sensitive would I be in order to 'see' who you are and understand what you mean? Very intriguing.

[eglantine]

Takes a lot to write a personal poem, especially one like this. Some people can just be pigs. My ex was one as well lol

I'd leave "YOU'RE" in the last line in lower caps.

Glad fireblossom suggested I read this.

[KAOlmsted]

At the risk of giving myself away...this actually happened to me the night before last. Meanwhile, I am in an eleven year relationship, so it's not quite the same...but...he woke me from a sound sleep thinking he'd get the you-know-what. I must have said no because he stormed himself around the house like a petulant child and the next morning it was as though nothing had happened. Men are idiots. They are ruled by that rush of blood. They don't understand no means no because we are not in the mood...they take no as we never want to see them naked again *laugh* Idiots. Men. Synonymous ;-)

[Nicole]

Ha, agreed! Well, not all men, but quite a few are. Since leaving the ex, I've met someone new. While nothing's official, he's shown me how badly my ex was treating me, just because of how good he treats me =). I guess there are silver linings, the bad makes us really see the good for what it is.

[KAOlmsted]

Good on ya. And yes. They all are ;-)