Never Again

Out of all the pieces I've written, this is perhaps one of the most emotional and difficult to write. It portrays a mind of an individual who is not living, merely existing and now, wishing to leave.

This burden, onerous burden
I carry all my life, barely trying to survive
This desire, desire to exist
Is no longer to be seen
The only voices which are heard
Are the cries from the devils within

 

A few, too many
I’ve had too much to think
It’s not them, it’s me
I’m the one who’s failing

 

My conscience tries once again

Pleading, begging me to stay
I tell this self that I will,
but I’m also hoping God takes me away

 

Too far, I wish to run far

I cry myself to sleep every night
Desperately asking I hadn’t been hit by a car

It’s always the same questions
that come to haunt you

Why is nothing going right?

And what good are you ever going to do?

 

Hoping, sincerely wishing
This chest gets heavier by the day

Praying, silently praying
These eyes never get to see daylight

Again

Author's Note

Please ignore grammar problems, thank you!

Reviews

[look.both.ways]

"a few too many, ive had too much to think"
my favorite line
great job!

[Nisha M.]

Thank you so much for this kind review! I appreciate it and I'm glad you liked reading it!