Fooled Once Again

Leather stuck in between my teeth so that I can taste every decision you’ve ever made

I can taste the apprehension within my own glands

Spitting out every notion I’ve ever had

Regurgitating what I believed to be true-

Which, now, is oozing of falsehoods

Pathetic lies that I told myself to soothe the monotony

Crystalized in my throat so that I can finally choke on something real

Comatose for years while the motions go through me

Comatose without you because I can’t relate

Can’t seem to grasp the emotions chucked at me and peppered in my face-

Instead " remaining numb to something I held onto for so long

Remaining numb until you revive me

Until you encompass my organs

Flat lining because everything else was fictional-

A contradictory reality that now seems ludicrous

It ceases to be my reality and is slowly morphing into a nightmare

So, I lay back down

Place the leather back in my throat because now I can’t be without it

I can’t be without the stinging reminder that I am alive

The stinging reminder that I now rely on it entirely

And nothing will ever be the same

There is no substitute for you

This psychological warfare has taken over me and for once, I’m not a victim

Encircling my entire body and I can’t move

My heart rate continues to accelerate and I can’t wait

Wrap me around your finger

I can’t stand not being awake 

Reviews

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSh..]

The hard cold feel, the offending twists, visual shocks, a real trigger to be pulled, aim if you will or put it to your head but this must be read again. I am speechless, I bow gracefully in respect. Leaving with images formed from words assembled brilliantly and loaded offensively. Their target and attack that of the very things others banter and complain of but never really change.

" So, I lay back down
Place the leather back in my throat because now I can’t be without it
I can’t be without the stinging reminder that I am alive "
Great lines, Masterful writing.

Sheer Terror

[Fabian Franco]

oh wow very well done the imagery is strong!

[Unspoken poet]

Love your last stanza, This is wonderful.
love the imagery.

[Coyote Poetry]

This is what poetry should be.
"There is no substitute for you
This psychological warfare has taken over me and for once " I’m not a victim
Encircling my entire body and I can’t move
My heart rate continues to accelerate and I can’t wait
Wrap me around your finger
I can’t stand not being awake "
The above lines. Real life and direct. You made the reader believe you Nadia. You give life and strength to your words. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote