"In Search Of Nothing"

My will is spent, my mind is bent,

On fierceness and ferocity,

Heading towards the spiral down,

With uncontrolled velocity,

A victim of, undying love,

Kindhearted generosity,

So now I pay with everyday,

Reprisal, Reciprocity.

 

Jaded, faded, and still frustrated

Blurting out profanity,

I walk the edge, a daily dredge,

Twixt brilliance and insanity,

Through my descent, my mind is rent,

A victim of my vanity,

I may explode, cant take the load,

So can you lend a hand to me?

 

I try my best, to win this quest,

To sacrifice my piety,

Reaching out, with nagging doubt,

In search of noteriety,

Thoughts i conjure, tend to injure,

The deplorable variety,

I'll settle in, with beer and gin,

And spoil my sobriety