I Get Worried When

I get worried

When I can't cry

When everything feels

Disconnected

I get worried when 
The time goes by 

Too quickly

And I find myself

Lying in bed at midnight

Not knowing what to whisper to G-d

Not knowing how to close my eyes

When all I've done all day

Is dream of this moment

And yet 

I get worried

Because when I'm in it

I am suddenly incompetent

Unable to 

Cry, 

Breathe out all the troubles,

Take out my precious psalms 

Mumble scared words, be humble, 

And ask for G-d to take away the pain.