Halfway to the Golden Gates

was inspired

my fingers are slurring

across this keyboard

one that makes me sink

deeper and deeper

into a breathless reality

 

i look around this room

do these people have a life

how do they live it

and why

 

why

if there is

how do they get through

the suffering

it's too hard

 

i know it can't just be me

who feels this crazy

is it time...

 

no.

 

how can i say i'm through

when i'm not even halfway

to the golden gates

where there is no pain?

 

if i go,

who will stay

who will miss my corpse the most

who will regret not saying anything

who would be gay?

Author's Note

GAY MEANS HAPPY