Red leaves

Alot is changing and I think i just started writing again

Walking on the sidewalk
Leaves blowing away
Orange turns to Red
I try to leave
But somehow i stay

Wide awake
And wondering how
It got this far
It got this numb
What happens now

Where are the leaves
Where is the green
I do not feel
Where have i been

All the time
I lost myself
Ones again
Dark red leaves
They circle the drain