onyx cloud

onyx clouds...

I find myself in the same onyx cloud

every day

Such a spontaneous way to live 

one day safe,

the next I'm fighting against myself to live

Now incapable of love, 

thanks to my own solemn defense

I am but cold, empty metal

my functions once were

as were my feelings 

Every day I'm in this onyx cloud

it sucks me dry of humanity,

it spreads the curtains of my pain,

reminds me of what you have done to me

Yes, it hurts to think about it.

But I don't feel bad anymore,

I hate you

that's all I know how to do 

It's my last fight against you

No, you can't make my knees turn to water

anymore

I've grown much stronger than that

I learned with people like you,

you've got to catch them by the throat

and slit it well

because the moment words 

start to flow

you may as well be dead

so here I sit

on this onyx cloud,

wiping the tip of my knife

Author's Note

for you.

Reviews

[Jamestown]

I know this place oh to well and when I was there I felt exactly the same,
there is hope! This is a well written piece of work and I pray that you
will continue to write, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Moebia]

Thank you!!