embers

i am defeated

by the million still whispers in my head

torturing me from dusk till dawn

at night, i become the recluse

of reckless calamities

 

the thoughts are touring

from my head to my fingertips

attempting to understand the virality

of my self-inflicted insanity

 

into the night, i stare

watch the stars from afar

while the birds still sing aloud

in the dimly colored trees

and the branches heave

 

hung up, on the chills

of morning cigarettes

and evening chocolate

the sweetness collapses

while the dim blue fog fills me up

 

and then, the pain

enters my chest

i breathe out

the tortured smoke

and I relapse,

release and fade out

 

only, to be awoken again

like embers in the ash

 

a fire, once so mighty

a light, once so bright