It is all, all too much

The farther I go into this book, the more it scares me how depressed I was. And it makes me appreciate all the more that it's over.

Where is that emptiness,
that coldness,
That doesn't let you care?

Why must I feel this emptiness,
This pain,
reminding me no one's there?

I want numbness,
no emotion
So I can survive it all

There's very little,
almost nothing
that makes you feel so small

There must be something,
anything
that can save me from this hole

I must be crazy
God please help me
Without you there is no hope

Author's Note

The last line ruined the rhythm but tied it together the way I wanted. Ignore grammar