Sad Heart Mine

The result of a mood swing at 12:10am on 1/22/13

I'm fighting this battle on my own,
It's not a war that can be won alone
I spend day after day in hopeful torment,
The pain continues unrelenting

I see it all around,
That happy connection
I stand alone,
Bitterness spreading like an infection

I don't hate who I am,
Nor who I've become
I just want a moment empty
freedom from this lovesick scum

It could be a mood
or it could be for real
I sit here alone
Too scared to feel

That bond that  I need
Is so far away
And the one who i need
May not want to stay

Drive a stake through my heart
It's already in pain
I don't want to give up hope
But I already feel slain

I write out this sad tale
Tears forming in my eyes
I can hardly see
Is my heart my demise?

My strongest organ
Beating in my chest
Will it beat me to death
Doing what it does best?

Maybe it's a test
or punishment for crime
The emotion that compels me
to complete this sad rhyme

I can hear wind through the walls,
a reminder of time
It's time for sleep
And rest for sad heart mine

Author's Note

It took me a few lines to really catch the flow of the poem as I wrote it. I just formed the first two lines in my head and felt my way from there.