Gasoline Dream

"There is no ill which may not be dissipated, like the dark, if you let in a stronger light upon it." - Thoreau

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fueling an amnesic memory

i thought i recognized you

that day out on the street

caught in the cobwebs of my passed-out, petroleum nightmare

tumbleweeds blowing through an anemic, kindled scene

sashaying through an unspoken, inflammatory dream

i swear i could hear the past scream

standing there in your dark, see-through negligee

you poured gasoline on my heart

on a partly sunny day

right before you flicked the match with your vindictive, combustive fingers

igniting a bonfire of egomania

you never could shake that nasty habit of pyromania

especially on your scorched island of

tasmania

Author's Note

"If I put my head deliberately into the fire, there is no appeal to fire or to the maker of fire, and I have only myself to blame." -Thoreau

Reviews

[lightsong]

I don't know if I am way out, but I feel here a kind of unrequited love, your first verse speaks about the deja vu, the second speaks about being consumed by the strong feelings and being controlled by the other person and the love toward them. unfortunately in the matters of hearts it is not easy to stay out of the "fire" and sometimes when we cross a certain line it feels it's too late to come back or to fix things up.

[Pete]

the same thing keeps happening and i keep letting her back in. she is like two different people - the one i love the other i despise. what is a person to do? am reluctant to dive back in this time - tired, afraid of being burned yet again. i should probably stop playing with matches 'til she cleans up her act. thank you for sharing thoughts lightsong ... :)

[lightsong]

it will need lots of courage, strength and patience to not go back dear Pete, but I encourage You on that, You know first importantly why? because You are helping her before You, she is depending on You and your love, when You leave her so she can wake up and grow, then if it meant to be, You two will join again but this time with You two walking together on the same level. she maybe needs her time without You so she can live the experience and learn. I don't mean to put my nose into your personal business I just share my thoughts on what your response reflected on my mind, maybe I got it wrong You are the one who knows it all, and for sure I only wish You the best there.

[Pete]

there is a strong wisdom in what you say - i keep pulling back and leaving her to her feminine wiles but she doesn't change, same thing over and over yet on a different level there is a strong connection (we click). what to do? thank you for sharing lightsong ... :)

[lightsong]

I understand the "click" thing, obviously the energy between you two is really stong, maybe she fills something missing inside You that's why You click and go back with her over and over and of course most of all it's obviously "love" :) lol please don't think I'm a counselor just let me wish You both the very best 💞

[Pete]

you've hit the nail directly on the head - opposites attract, she is what i am not and vice versa. she is a bit wild, daring and carefree i am a conservative churchgoer, shy and timid ... :)

[lightsong]

So, You+Her = Completeness. :)

[Pete]

yes, in a messed up way, when we're not lost in ourselves ... :)

[barleygirl]

This could describe a very much younger me, quite stingingly. V1 is strong, but V2 is zinging hot. V1 is such a relatable tumble of how it feels when a reverie sends us into a mind-boggle. Love your use of "tumbleweeds" & all the rest of your well-drawn-out drama. V2 feels a little vindictive on the part of the narrator, thru the use of doubled-up descriptive words, as if hammering your points home:
"you flicked the match with your vindictive, combustive fingers
igniting a bonfire of egomania
you never could shake that nasty habit of pyromania" . . .
I kinda relate to this b***h & why she might've needed to blow this guy's bullshit away *wink! wink!* Fondly, Margie

[Pete]

lol. really - you, never? this poor guy is an angel.
ouch, will have to sleep in flame retardant pajamas with one eye open from now on ... :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

she has the devil in her and she tempted the speaker, almost to set himself on fire.
Your imagery is startling in this piece, and you give us such ignition of passion here.
Damn the consequences, full speed ahead.
j.

[Pete]

daring to love. we become vulnerable. can be like a double-edged sword - cutting both ways. you sound brave. thanks j. ... :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

on the contrary, you sound brave in the poem. I am
a chicken-s**t when it comes to love...read moreon the contrary, you sound brave in the poem. I am
a chicken-s**t when it comes to love...
Past experience put me in the coop.

[Pete]

brave or glutton for punishment ... :)

[Pete]

when she says jump, i say, "how high?"

[Poetic Beauty]

Some people are ruthless and vindictive. I understand in some situations but not when it comes to the heart. I have so many secrets I keep even if people I no longer talk to

[Pete]

people shouldn't play with matches or hearts ... :)

[Poetic Beauty]

This is very true