Nostalgia

The silence is over-bearing

I try to fill the silence with music

But its always too quiet

Silence drags me to my addictions

I try to pull away

But it's so tempting

So the music gets louder and louder

So every thought will disappear

The temptation will fade away 

Later to show itself again

Going back to my bad addictions

Seems so welcoming

But I pull myself away

To keep others at ease

I'll keep telling myself 

Just to survive another day things will get better soon

But it's starting to feel like lies

Is there any hope left for me?