Fading

A Poem by Jofer Serapio

Lyin' in my bed
Starin' at the ceiling
for hours and hours
until something exciting occurs.

The silence is killing me,
redundancies are boring me
I can't do anything.
     I'm still hoping I'd wake up
     and everything turns out to be a dream.

My motivations have all died
My dreams, my aspirations have all withered away.
     Betrayed by a best friend
     Betrayed by a loved one
     Betrayed by the world
Can't wait to this nightmare's end.

I want to do something about it
but I can't do anyting to change it.
I'm trapped in this monotonous void.

I changed, I know.
I fell apart and
I've fallen hard.
Can't get back up
Can't get back to who I was.

I'm fading, I know.
     Still, I'm fading.