Old Soul

I'm an old soul.

When I was little, everyone said that I had an "old soul." I had no idea what that meant until about the sixth grade. Apparently, it means that you seek the more meaning things in life and the necessities rather than wants. Others said I was born in the wrong time. I believe that more.

Let me explain some more:

 I hate technology. It's super cool but I have no idea how it works. I don't understand how I can talk into my phone and someone in a different state can hear me. BUT, I feel like technology is somewhat ruining my life. One, I get so stressed out about it. I swear it can be the most annoying yet helpful thing in the world. Two, it creeps me out. I can't really explain that one, it just does. Three, it takes up so much time in my life. It's addictive and I can find myself on my phone or laptop all day. I enjoy it in the moment but when someone asks me what I did that day and all I can reply is "I watched YouTube videos." it upsets me. I've tried a million times to lesson the amount of time I spent on electronics but I do online school so it's nearly impossible. That's another thing. It seems that today you have to have a smartphone and computer to live. Majority of places you will work, will make it mandatory that you have to have a computer or smartphone. It's the only way they can keep up with people. It pains me to realize how dependent I am on technology. I wish I could go back through time and live without it. No lie: I've thought being Amish would be pretty cool too.

Nowadays everything is so complicated. Some people would disagree completely and say that technology has made everything easier but I swear it's done the opposite. I would love to go back to simpler days when we didn't use lightbulbs and we had to grow our own food. We couldn't just go out and grab a burger at McDonald's. I'm fascinated by things from the past too. Like record players (I want one so bad for Christmas), telegraphs, and typewriters (want one of those too.)

I just think I would be so much happier living in the past than now. I'm not saying I'm ungrateful for the things I have or that I hate my life, I'm perfectly fine with the life I'm living. Well, maybe my anxiety could go away and I could get some friends but still, I'm okay. I just think that the past suits me better. Call me crazy.

Reviews

[Lorry]

I'm with you on this one. I've been studying cultural changes (online of course) and you would be amazed at some of the studies and their results. Like for instance, the average person touches there phone over 2000 times a day. That is a lot of fondling. They also studied kids watching tv shows and found that almost three quarters of kids have panic attacks when it is turned off without warning. I totally get the old soul part, as well as the positives of technology. But you know something? We done absolutely fine without the lot of it. So grab that typewriter and go fish for supper, see how different you feel after that. Bet you won't be rushing back to update your status :)

[barleygirl]

I've heard the term "old soul" and I don't think what you're describing here has anything to do with my interpretation of what that means. That minor discrepancy aside, I really enjoy your self-revealing rant about technology & I share many of your impressions. I'm 60 & I've never had a cell phone. I often unplug my landline phone for the weekend becuz I consider that MY time -- I don't need to be summoned by anyone who thinks I should answer on the spot. If they want me, they can message or email, so I can respond on my schedule. I was addicted to technology at first, as everyone seems to be. Instead of trying to NOT be tied to it, I find it's more productive to simply fill your life with other more organic pursuits & then the shallow dissatisfaction of technology loses its luster, & you can even forget to check your messages for a few days if you're really absorbed in whatever other things are turning you on. Anyhow, my diatribe aside, it's a good rant when it provokes a reply rant, I guess! We can all relate to the things you're sharing & I love your self-honesty. All compelling writing starts with self-honesty.

[Courtney Hough]

You are not crazy! I hear you! Being an old soul is this time is so rare. Its a greedy time...and old souls tend to be sensitive. It's a great gift you have darling:)