Goodbye

I wrote this when I knew my ex and I were going to separate.

If only you could start to see, if you could understand. 
The demons deep inside kills the part of me that’s man
I don’t expect you to
Don’t expect you to save my life 
But at one point there was part of me that wanted you to try 

Excuse me if I act a fool
I’m trying my best to change
But it seems as though that all I see 
Each step in front of me is pain. 

It kills me when we’re fighting
Shotgun bullets through my brain
I wish there was a way for me to help us through this fate 
But surely you will leave me, dear
It happens every time 
You will break my heart into pieces I will never find. 
Surely you won’t leave me, dear
It happens every time. 
Said i'd kill myself ‘fore I’d lose you
But I’d live to make you mine.