EVIL LOVE

The depression settles in my heart.....

My anger floods my veins.....

Trying to speak but the words are gone.....

Happiness fades to sadness and love to hate.....

Then finally slowly but surely my world falls to ruins.....

My light turns to darkness and soon i am consumed.....

My soul is darkened and soon dies.....

Then good in me is dead....

Leaving only the demons in my head....

Overwhelmed by rage and drained of all emotion....

Happiness is only an elusion....

My only constant is pain....

Hoping for an end but none in sight.

Twisting  the knife you put in my back.

Laughing at my pain.

leaving me to die.

Never looking back.

Needing a friend but none will come.

Wanting help but none is given.

Misery my only companion i struggle on.

My heart starved of love.

My body drained of strength.

Barely holding on.

I reach for you hand,but you do not receive.

Standing there,staring,watching as i suffer.

Playing with my emotions like some sick game.

Then like a broken toy,you throw me away.

So much evil from something so beautiful.

Unable to understand,you give no answer.

I lost your game and can not restart.

Haunted by your words.

Cursed by you memory.

You were truly the worst thing to have ever happened to me.

I let go of all attachment and a weight is lifted.

I forget your name and the words return.

I forget your name and my rage subsides.

I let go of my love and my soul is revived.

My strength returns and i walk away.

Never looking back.

Never to think of you again.

Nothing more than a dream.

As far from reality as possible.

My light reeluminated ,freeing me from darkness.

Heart broken now repaired.

Unable to love now lots to give.

The time is now.

I'm moving on.

Scars fading,wounds healing.

My elusion becomes a reality.

Happiness replaces sadness and hate is taken by love.

My future is unclear but i let go of my past.

Hoping,wishing,praying for something better.

Opening my heart to love.

Waiting for her.

The one meant for me.

Author's Note

please leave a review i want some input

Reviews

[Beautifully Tragic xPoe..]

Felt like I was reading my own journal. Something we can mostly all relate to. Great write!

[Luscious Leigh (Leslie ..]

God, I know these feelings. I can so relate. I love it, but not the pain.

[Morrigan Nicole]

this is really good and keeps the mind busy, working out the emotion and truth in the words. your choice of vocab is splendid and a perfect example of one of those best-seller works.
not to get personal or anything, but who or what are you referring to?

[Beaner166]

I love the positivety from way back when but she still needs work. This poem is about my first love ( not that she deserved it ). I think I'll start writing more so hopefully you'll see it if you're still active.