My Fault

This moment did actually happen. Though I didn't really think about why I was crying. This was a memory from when I was younger.

That night I cried 

And many of the little droplets held meaning.

 

One tear for my new life 

One tear wishing for a life I could never have 

One tear for knowing I can't have it 

One tear for who I am 

One tear for wanting to be the old me 

One tear knowing I'll never be the same 

One tear for my family 

One tear for wanting it healed 

One tear for knowing there's no glue for this broken glass 

Then several tears 

Which I didn't know why leaked out. 

For my self-hatred 

For my eldest sister who instigated the divorce 

For my parents who didn't seem to try 

For an unknown future 

For the world 

But I know I was trying to blame the wrong people. 

It's my fault for not being a better daughter

I hate myself the most 

Because I ruined everything I once had.

Author's Note

Listen, I know this poem sucks. Please don't annihilate me.
With cute puppy dog eyes,
Rhea752

Reviews

[Celestial Witch Child]

Love the honesty.

[MOON]

Good emotional write, heartfelt.

[Rhea752]

thank you Miss MOON :P

[Tai Ryens]

This poem doesn't 'suck,' it is relatable and straightforward. Deep emotions and lovely meaning; I love how most tears have meaning.

[Rhea752]

Thank You :P

[Amila Jay]

"One tear for knowing there's no glue for this broken glass" ...wow .. it's a very deep write .. Lovely poem :))

[Rhea752]

Thank you!!! :D

[Amanda]

I promise not to annihilate you! I loved this poem because I can kind of relate to it. Keep it up Rhea! :D

[Rhea752]

thank you!! :D

[Lina Grey]

I don't think it sucks. The poem is very honest, vivid, and full of emotion. It reminds me of my own feelings when my parents got divorced; I can understand the force behind the words. Thank you.

[Rhea752]

thank you so much. sorry about your parents. divorce is a rock thrown to break the glass protecting you from reality.

[Lina Grey]

Ain't that the truth. Honestly, I felt the same way about my divorce as you do at the end of your poem. I still do, at times. :P

[Rhea752]

me too. i know it's not all my fault. but some of it i feel definitely is.

[Owlgirl]

Wow! Very well written! And the emotions, so vivid, so open, I am once again awed. Keep your head held high and a bright eye on the future, Rhea752, and two thumbs up!

[Rhea752]

Thank you very much. :)