Catch the Last Train

Catch the Last Train

 

I think sometimes


this roller coaster ride


should be stopped 

and allow me to get off


wave goodbye to 
family, friends and lovers


return to dust and


whatever comes next

 

tight is the choke hold by the tentacles

of emotional blackmail

that speaks to

leaving a legacy of pain

for children, grandchildren

partners, friends and family

 

it seems a transgression of

right thinking and philosophical

clap trap rules and principles

are what make the choice

reek of cowardice and

self loathing

 

I bet my frontal lobes

are gray with the

muck of unfulfilled promise

long standing poverty and

the stench of decayed joy

 

so why don’t I just do it?

stop riding this train and

catch the next one

 

perhaps that tiny speck of light

like the flame of a Bunsen burner

on the moon

far away but visible

in the mind’s eye

 

keeps me waiting 

to see

how it

turns out

in the end

 

Reviews

[Kelly Scheppers]

I like to find a perspective to everything - I think it helps to keep me focused, and gives me the perseverance to go on, no matter how dim that light at the end of the tunnel may be.

You are a most indulging, engaging read, Rubie!

[rubie]

Appreciate the review, and your kind words, Kelly!

[Daydreamer]

When this ride is over, I hope to recall all of the good things..
I enjoyed this one, Rubie..

[rubie]

That's all any of us can wish for....
Thanks so much for your kind review.

[Adam Adams]

At first, when I saw just your captivating title, the very first thing that entered my mind's.. the movie called "7:39".. but when I read what you stirred inside with with insights felt like: "Oh.. that's twisting". Your poetry has no explanation in words, only the hearts understand it well deeply so do I. Nice imagery!

[rubie]

Love your review!
Thank you so much for your keen insight.

[...]

What is a heart without hope, Rubie? It does wear on a hopeful heart to see an infest of greed, disregard, and lack of compassion. It's a disease and people like you, are the antidote :)

[rubie]

Thank you for your beautiful sentiments.
Much appreciated!

[Miss Sharon]

Wow Rubie! To me this one speaks of someone almost to the breaking point with no hope for a better tomorrow. These lines in particular...(so why don’t I just do it? stop riding this train and catch the next one) Seems that the writer is contemplating suicide. My interpretation may be way off the mark of course, but your post DID touch me deeply and THAT after all, is truly what each writer aims for. ~Sharon

[rubie]

So glad to hear this piece reached you. It matters less how it did, just that it did.
Thanks for the kind words.

[sereenaoutloud]

When people around us keep taking and giving nothing back in return, how it can be so draining and make us want to give it all in
But then there is that flicker of hope that is always burning no matter how dimly!
Brilliant write Rubie! :)

[rubie]

Thank you so much for your kind words.
Yes, it is always there, and I think that's what keeps us going.

[~]

Ahh, yes. At times, overwhelmed by the outrageous things happening around us, and how the powerful ones do not give but only take, when the suffering and the pain gets tangible in the most intimate way, we like to give an end to this sherade.
And then -- hope reigns! :D

a great thought provoking piece!

[rubie]

Thank you for your kind review.
Much appreciated.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

"that tiny speck of Bunsen burner/on the moon/far away but visible"
ah yes....that speck that keeps us going when it seems pointless...I like that little flicker in this, even with all the questions that remind me of Plath and Sexton....weighing why stay?

[rubie]

I always appreciate your kind reviews, my friend..

[jeannemarie coulter]

this is very powerful and thought provoking...i am riding that last train and i drag my feet every day seeking that beautiful flicker of light dripping down from the moon...love this one...thank you...

[rubie]

So glad you could relate...I think we all can.
That flicker is always there. Just look for it.