Back to existence

Diary

This world is a tiring and exhausting place . Sometimes what i feel about is that it is a loop which is shackling us. I think here I am shackled everytime . The shackle of judgement,shackle of what to do and what not to do. Why do people clash on the basis of philosophy,religion and thoughts? Why do we love to bind ourselves in war rather than the freedom of peace?

I remember my high school days. I remember the times when it was not urgent for me to deal with this world to survive . Can you imagine times ? you don’t talk to anyone ,never communicate with any human. You are just a simple kid of nature . You sit under a tree on the grass . You don’t love to go to classes much .Because you just love to listen to all those authors in silence .

Yes, I have led this life for so many years. And I am leading this right now also. Though the crowd outside is disturbing , my inner voice is bigger than it .

You know what is the most amazing thing ? I tried to adjust with this society and people from . I tried to be like others : talkative ,energetic,extroverted , full of gang. I lost myself . I lost my existence,I lost me. I lost the girl who used to talk with books .I lost the girl who used to make friends with trees.

And for a while I became someone else. I was not. But I felt the vacancy inside me years after years . Then at a point of time I understood ,I cannot be someone else to fit in the validity certificate of the society. I cannot settle for a set of rules and philosophy ,my soul does not support.

I took a big step . I decided to go back to my roots .I decided to go back to my originality . I went back to my existence.

Whenever I look back , I feel blessed somewhere . I feel blessed that I did not waste much of my life . After dealing with the world for 4�"5 years , I came into realization. I protected myself ,built up myself .

Whatever I understood , we should have a balance between our innerworld and outerworld .Everyone of us should have an inner universe. We should only absorb stuff from the outer universe which supports the survival of our inner universe .

It is mandatory to lead a proper healthy lifestyle . It is your food,your sleeping time, your daily routine,the environment you live in .

I think still life becomes beautiful when you start living it the purest way . In the universe ,energy is currency. Invest this currency and buy amazing gifts to decorate your life in a new and different way

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

Some would nod and move on from your words, thinking of them as a semi-bio. Perhaps. But for me - start to finish, you've been talking to yourself, happily and contentedly happy inside your skin.. each layer adding to the complex but simple YOU. That displays a humble attitude - a reaching out then arriving at your desired destination. Wonderful words, the ending near spiritual, near desire for.. perfection in your own personal way, those gifts are subtle yet superb.

'Everyone of us should have an inner universe. '

[Rafia Noor Purbita]

Thanks. Actually writting heals, sometimes self talk,expressing inner voice in article gives relief and helps to create an inner universe

[emmajoygreen]

'self talk' - a perfect way of describing how to...

Yes, you're so right.. writing does heal and in so many ways! Great to 'hear' from you! Happy weekend!